I've done vocal NYSSMA for three years and this year I decided to try something new. I decided to do a jazz solo. Now I'm someone who doesn't like to do things that are new or different but I felt like if I didn't take that chance then I wouldn't have another one so I decided to do it and I have no regrets.

Despite the fact that I didn't do as good as I do on a classical solo I felt more free with this solo and that I could put myself more into the song. Not only that but the challenge of trying a scat solo just appealed to me because they seem fun and challenging to figure out how each part fits.

What also was great was how it showed off a different side and I was able to revitalize my love for singing.

For me it's hard to fail, whether or not its something complex as long as I put effort into something I get attached and want to succeed.

In art we were tasked with creating individual pieces with specific guidelines. So in this project that was titled Finished? the prompt was that many artist  have been challenging the traditional idea of finished art work. I had this great idea planned out it was gonna be amazing and all that jazz but, I started it a bit late and it didn't come out the way I wanted it to and that wouldn't be a big deal if I hadn't worked on it and liked the project so I ended up not only dissatisfied and disappointed with how it came out but, I also was disappointed in myself because I knew that I should've gotten an earlier start. 

For me though this was a good reminder that I have to work on planning things out and starting early so I'll be able to accomplish what I need to do not only for the purpose of having it done but also so I can do a task in a way that I want.

I have nowhere I can say I am genuinely content so I looked for somewhere where I don't have to actually be so not a physical place  rather something I can bring with me no matter where I am.

That is the case with music.

With music I feel safe because I know it will always carry me in to its arms and I can share my emotions with whether I'm feeling sad and I need as song to pick me up or I'm just tired where I'll listen to something calm or something with deep meaning.

I just love to completely unravel music in my head hear how all the parts meld into each other to create something that although may be beautiful separate is even better when there is that unity. and getting lost in that just feels so good because even though there are all the problems that we all face, for me music will always be there to embrace me in it to take me on a ride where I'm just following and letting it take me.

It's not just the music that unifies but it can also unify others like in choir where although there are some I may not look favorably upon but when we're all singing together to make music its comforting knowing that in music we can put our differences aside and acknowledge each other for our contribution to create something amazing.

I really don't know what the best thing about being submerged in it is but I can say that for me music is a place I can be free and I don't have to worry about my surroundings or those around, it can be just me there if I want and I can always go to this place that is so easy to get to. And I can't help but fall into the beats and rhythms (many times causing me to dance in inappropriate places/in the middle of stores or I may go overboard but I don't think It really matters because I'm enjoying myself). It's just so easy to get lost there and end up in the labyrinth of the harmonies, beats and just everything that is working so hard to keep me there.  Because of this I sometimes need a reality check and someone to bring to the real world since it's so easy to just stay there and relax for eternity.

For me music is one of my favorite places to be even though I cant touch it and I really wish I could but it will always be there despite anything and it can't be affected by things like natural disasters so, it is very reliable which in my eyes is very important and I wouldn't trade it for a physical place

Kdramas...

Where do I even start?

I guess I can start by saying that Kdramas are... you guessed it (maybe you didn't but just play along) Korean Dramas. 

ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ Woo! 

Disclaimer: once you start you can't stop and you'll be sucked into a black hole of unrealistic standards that will never be met and your whole life will be disrupted by them. ( T_T) Woo.

Every episode of a drama is typically around an hour and have episode around 16 or 20 (although some go up to the 30s or the super rare 50s) episodes and don't usually have multiple seasons.

Now why are these dramas so addicting? Well don't hold onto your seat because I'll tell you.

The writers love to do this thing where they get you emotionally attached to the characters through the comedic actions or exciting scenes and the characters themselves make you love them. So everything is all good and fine, there's sunshine and unicorns until BAM! The writer decides to put you on roller coaster that makes you want to cry and smile and it can be just such a mess. 

Also there are the second leads that although sometimes they may be a brat or someone you sincerely wish you could burn on a stake there are those second leads that are absolutely fabulous and adorable and although you (or at least I personally) want the main leads together you want to cuddle and hold that adorable second lead and tell them that you love them and if the main character won't have them you'll keep them for yourself.

So yeah why I love Kdramas. 

Disclaimer #2 This is just the basics and honestly I'm too lazy to continue 

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It was hot, I was sitting outside on my driveway and I was bored. So what did I decide to do? Well sing.

I've always had this habit where I sing whenever I'm bored and there is never a set topic that I sing about. One moment I'll be singing about love next I'll be singing about murder then next thing you know I'm coming up with a song about murdering a lover.

Anyways continuing with my story I was singing something I had made up on the spot again and waiting for who knows what to happen when one of my neighbors came walking up my driveway.

I was in my own world and wasn't paying attention to him so when he told me that I was pretty good I just stopped and my eyes widened and I just nodded my head. Although on the outside I may not have shown it the sense that he actually liked my singing and my songs of nonsense made me feel warm and really happy because he didn't just reject it or find it annoying and honestly I probably wouldn't like singing as much as I do know if it wasn't for that time.

My life is an egg and from that egg hatched a duck.